Waste the hell out of that spare time!
Because I could’ve easily gotten off my backside and baked … cleaned …. shaved … plucked … showered …. analysed my navel fluff.
I spent the extra hour using filters and fun computery tricks to turn a real selfie picture of me looking quite possibly deranged but definitely stinky and covered in baby puke ….
Silence and stillness are such rare commodities in today’s world. They’re certainly a rarity when you are a caregiver.
What I’d like to do in future, is allow myself to feel uncomfortable in my own company, if I feel lonely or irritable, notice that feeling come and pass. Just allow myself to be.
Sometimes we are so used to having our days filled with ‘to-do’ lists, school pickups, appointments, work deadlines, dinner, washing BLAH BLAH BLAH, that we forget the importance of coming back down to earth and just allowing ourselves to be. Be lonely. Be silent. Be uncomfortable. Be observant. Be curious. Be nothing. Be still. Just be.
You owe it to yourself. And so do I.